Being Thankful

Last night I had a heartfelt conversation with my mom. Things were brought to my attention that I guess i dramatized things allot and live in a unrealistic world. So I think I'm thankful for what I did have, and still have. In someone else's eyes I may have the world but because I looked at things so drastically different that I think I was the cause of all my missing out.

My Mom, we have our ups and downs but I love her more that any thing in this world. I never that deep about that 'til sometime ago but if I didn't have her my whole world would fall apart. I never thought about of the reasons why I have what I have, and why I strive do so much more for my self. At first I was Doing it to prove people wrong, but once i seen the look in my mothers eyes when I got my report card she had a smile on her face, and from that point I strived for nothing less than that big smile. I thankful that I have a Mother like the one I have she goes out of her way to do for her children and never gives up.

My Brother, we have so many differences, but i would run to his rescue when ever he needs me. I will stick up for him even if that means puttin my foot in someones mouth. Hes my brother and I love him. At times we have times that we fuss,fight,and argue but through all that when it all come down to it hes my brother and that I can never change. So I'm thankful that hes my brother and maybe in the near future we will get along.

Some day our family will be closer that ever!!!

From The One Who's Kept There Herat Secret

A Heart, built up of brick walls and emptiness. So hollow you can hear the echos, from my chess to my finger tips. Tho my heart still pumps with hopes and dreams, yet also pumping negative things into my blood stream. My heart is a lock with no key, so the world can only see the exterior of me. For the people on the out side looking in, Let me explain it once and NEVER again:

I've locked every door or window that there is to look deep into my heart. So many emotions covered by loud laughter, dum jokes, and a smile that never fails to fade and turn gray. How can a heart heal when it's been: lied to, stolen from, riped, played with, taken for-granted, broken, and turned cold? How do you take so many emotions and put them all in one place? My heart aches everytime I feel like I've shown false emotion. How can I hide the fact that I'm drained out; so drained that I've never let anyone get closer than the exterior of me. Never to know when this bull shyt we call love is but, when i find out, it will have the privilege to find the key to my HEART

AWW APEX

luv yet hate,

the class im in now is really cool but yet i think it can be better. There are dates set that you have to do things. i think the deadlines are compleatly unfare for the a mount of time you have to do them. They want you to be done with a whole chapter in one week, witch is so unreallistic because even in a inperson class thats not always posible. Sometimes it gets to be TOO MUCH! I think you should be albe to submit things online. Tachers that have a lac of knoleage in sertin fileds are currecting our papers based off what the answers tell them they should be. I have a spinash teacher for APEX (nothing aginset her just example) how is she currecting my english papers! I JUST DON'T GET IT!

Fecall Toy Follow up

So Many toys. Why make a toy and then recall it. I know these toy company's are loosing lots of money. When i think about the whole thing its really dumb. They recall toys for many different reasons. One of the articles said; 544,000 toys recalled because of high lead levels. What is happening from the time these toys are made to the time they are being put on the shelves in retail and toy stores. I mean they had a while to find the problem. It makes you wounder what is more important, your children or their money. Why not find the problem and fix it? I guess a couple times its by mistake but when you look at all the toys that where recalled you can no longer look at it that way.

Recalled Toys

It's always just around Christmas that so many toys that so many toy's are recalled. People but these kids toys and then have to take them back. When I was about 10 i got a Cabage Patch doll that i really liked and my mom had to take it back and i was really sad about that. Whats your take on it ??


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Don't for get to smell the flowers

People all over the world have important things that they worry about. people pass by life so trapped in bubbles that they don't even know there in. Teens the have bubbles like no other kind, we stay wrapped up in,girls/guys, hanging out, and the next best thing. Adults have a totally different bubble they are always concerned in working, raising there kids (if they have any), and anything else adults od in there lives. kids just do what ever there minds say they want to do LOL. but if we all just take some time to smell the flowers things could just be a little better!!!!!!


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:( BST and MCA

Why is it that to graduate you has to take this test that no one ever wants to take in the first place. And what happens people don't pass? It is already hard to graduate for me. The time that they give you those test is such ripoff. I read really slow and not to good at understanding what i read and you get 30 mins. on each section. And there is always allot to read. I think its a wast of time and a wast of money to make kids take the test that done the road could be there biggest reason why kids don't graduate. You can't even think of getting a job with out a high school diploma. So why make it even harder????

blogs i read (What young Girls write about)

Ava 16

I think its really cool that she has started a blog. She seems like a cool person. But it seems that she will use her blog to vent about school, home life, and other teenage stuff. maybe it will be a good way to get things off her shoulders. her writing is kind of all over the place like she has so much to say but her mind is just working faster than her computer keys

Rin Reizei 14

She just writes about school and how its kinda hard for her to understand things. Like most young people write about just getting side tracked and venting about everything they feel. her writing is very hard to read it like she put words where she thought they should and she tends to write in a type of code.

Emile sings 15

Emile is not so much like the other 2 girls she has been writing about her moving to a new house and how she feels about it being Pink LOL! she has also posted pictures and has written about her hair cut. Her writing is very clear she seems like a person that types slow so it tends to be very easy to read and its cleaner that what you would expect most teenage girls blogs to look or sound like

Angrea 16

Topical teen age girl. The fist blog i read was about the hills.(LOL) shes totally into fashion and just the girly stuff. I think i would totally love to be friends with her she seems like she got a wonderful personality. From what I've read it sounds like she writes as if she were right next to you having a conversation :D

Mai Chou Vang 16

She's totally different from the other 4 girls who's blogs I've read. she write with heart and uses metaphors. her write style is very mature and she seems to be some one that will be a really good blog to follow! :D

I am Not What You Say I am!!

I am not my hair, I am not this skin, I am not your expectations no no, I am not my hair , I ma not this skin, I am a soul that lives within! "India Arie-I am not My Hair"

Since I was little I've been talked about and teased. Growing up it was hard for me, i didn't know who i was as a person. And i wasn't very outgoing kind of quite and not that good at making friends. so i would look at what other kids would do and how many friends they had. I began to act and would want to dress the way they did. Boy did i have an identity crisis (LOL). that was in grade school. When i got to 7th and 8th grade i made a name for myself as the "Bad Girl" and it got me a lot of friends but it also had me in trouble every other day with my teachers. I was just about done with 8th grade when I read a book called The skin I'm in. That helped me kinda find out who I was as a person. My first year of high school a started kinda started to do my own thing; but i got me the same result people where still taking about me. So I talked to my mom and she helped me find away to not let it bother me so much so i began to laugh at what they said and to make jokes too. Now i found who i am as a person and nothing people say get to me I am conferable whit who I am and no one else can say anything

DIFFERENT !!!!

A lyfe I Live

From the age of 2 I didn't have a father. He would come and go but I just wasn't enough. I felt like my heart was half empty. So I got mad at every one and every thing. I blamed everyone but the person i needed to. As a child things where hard and I didn't know how to handle things that i felt so strongly about so i just acted out. (Witch got me nowhere.) And because of that a lot of people in my family did not want to be around me because of they way i acted. But to to me they just didn't love me. so i just pushed everyone way and thought things would be better if i just didn't love anyone afraid that they would just up and leave

Just About Me

I love the worm summer air,movies at the drive through,zoomin down the street with the music really loud. laughin at the wired things people are saying in the back ground when I sit in the frunt seat of the car lookin out the window and all thoughts too my self. I live like there will be no tomarrow but jus in the summer time. In the winter im looked in the house where it is worm all the time. where i love to write spoken word and poetry. To share with the world some day!