over the break

"For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning." -- T.S. Eliot

I really like this quote. It's something to really think about, and something to live by. In a way to me it's saying that (in lac of better thoughts) whats in the past is in past and there is always a future.

BREAK:

Over break i had the chance to get together with friends and family to have fun and chillax. Christmas dinner at grama and grampa's house for dinner. House full of people (family). never a dull moment with my grampa. my mom and cousin making people laugh. It was fun seein every body. I got a phone for Christmas that i have not put done since i got it i think its becoming part of me (lol). I went to my friends house and everynight we didn't go to bed 'til early morning and im not tired (lol).

Jump Ahead: (My Birthday)
I went to the mall for my birthday. We got there at 11:50 and did not leave 'til like 7 all most 8 we went to the movie and seen 7 pounds (so good) walked around and thats about it lol

i gotta cell phone! I gotta cell phone! I gotta cell phone!

So i got a cell phone for Christmas my mom couldn't wait to see our faces so she let us open our gifts yesterday. Seeing that we would have no time to open girts at our house Christmas morning. I am writing this blog for my beloved cellular phone. I've decided not to let me have a cell phone rule my lyfe because I've been w/out and its not really that bad put I wanna enjoy it some more so this is the end of my blog!

What A Year!!

I think that 2008 started off crazy. I wasn't in the place I am now. I was so caught up in what my friends thought of me, terrible relationships, not doing anything academic in school. Everything was a mess. I had a boyfriend that really didn't do shyt for me, I found out who my true friends are, home drama, school dilemmas. But once I figured things for my self and made things clear, I got back on track but it didn't seem to be enough tho. I had a teacher that tried to prevent me from coming to Creative Arts. But now that im here i love it and my year has done nothing but gotten better!!!!!!

ABC 2008

A- All of nothing (not sure what that means yet LOL)

B- Boardem (I need a lyfe LOL) need to get out more with friends. I'm such a homebody that sucks too.

C- CELL PHONE: i would really like to have mine back! but do I reall deserve it? Gotta think about it!

D- Dishes hate doing them, so I have to do them every other week in my house but i hate doing them and when I don't i have to do them another week sucks huh?

E- EVERYTHING GOING GREAT (for now) who know what happens next in the life of Rickeisha Powell

F- Frustration about school and grades!!

G- GOOD TIMES! I'm always laughing

H- Having fun even if I'm not (what ever that means LOL)

I- The INDEPENDENTS I would like to have but I don't know maybe I already do but hey.

J- Jokes that are dumb when I tell them not really good at it.

K- Kids that love me, lots of kids just seem to cling on too me ??

L- Loving friends

M- MOM that cares !!

N- NO PARTY'S! my mom doesn't approve of them but I can see Y.

O- Over pretective, my mom shelters her kids but sometimes I want too go out and make mistakes of my own and learn from them on my own. not saying that I wanna go find trouble but I just wanna be free for a little while.

P- Pretty cool teachers - i love my teachers a Creative Arts love them all (some of them)

Q- QUWEST

R- Rickeisha Powell Being me constantly! :p

S- Sleeping in Becky's room in the morning LOL

T- talent

U- unusual events

V- very lucky this year

W- WHY ME?

X- X-Mas - luv it

Y- Young Life, Best place to e on Mondays.

Z-

identity crises continue comming to the END!

OK realization here: My dad said it point blank. this whole identity is just a way for me to find me not were i can fit in. I've been going about this the wrong way. These cloths aren't me. I think I like skinny jeans and graphic tees. The rocker chick look yup thats totally me all the way!

So yesterday dad took me shopping he was smiling the whole time. Weird. But he was pretty happy when we talked about my Identity crises yesterday. And me and Becka are friends again. Now I'm friends with Liz, Janaya, and Shawn and we have even started or own chick click we are the rocker chicks. As far as Jake and I we go out and everybody knows!

But this whole thing was to impress, I guess when we find out who we as a person everyone will except who we are and if they dont oh well. Just as long as you know who you are nothing any one else says matters

identity crises continue 3

This morning I went to school And Liz started talking to me like we were best friends. Becka once again acted as if we were never friends. And Jake never looked at me. I heard him ask someone if I was the new girl. I just wanted to go home and hide under my covers. Just when I thought the day was over I was told I had to make up the gum period I missed the day before. I got there and I seen Shawn in the locker room I talked to her about Jake and the team. OK side bar: I would so love to be a lady jock. that way it would be ok to go-out with Jake and no one couldn't say anything, but back to the story. Shawn said the Janaya asked him out but he said no the he was in to some one else. Int the back of my mind I wanted it to be me but i know that wont happen. Just then I only have two days to figure out this whole changing thing. O no!

identity crises continue 2

OK side bar: I have never had any thing like this happen to me. This is to weird. Later that day I was talking to Liz it was so weird, but all conversations with her is weird. I was asking her about her being Goth, its sounds cool,I wounder what it would be like. After Talking to Liz I went to my last class of the day Ms. Sennett's and when I got there sat across from Jake. He didn't say word to me like he never talked to me. He did pass me a note that said:

Dear Laurette
I really like you but it wouldn't work out because no one would approve.
Can you meet me Friday in the old tree house.
truly, JAKE

After reading that letter I was ecstatic about the whole thought of our secret love that we would have. But what if this was a popular kid joke that they play on he nerdy kids? So i wrote a letter back and asked if that was the starting of cruel joke, he assured me that it wasn't and i agreed to meet him. The next day my wardrobe was totally different. Everything was black and hot pink, and my dad called me L this morning. Yup you guessed it I'm totally Goth. Still thinking of how this happen it slipped my mind about Jake. U dropped everything and begged my dad not to make me go to school. He just said that it was pointless not to go to school because of the way I look. He acted as if this was the way I dressed all the time. Crazy huh?